Mirage...

I am amazed at,
The strangeness of life.
Yet beautiful and colourful it is,
Tempting me within.
           .
I have no clue why I like you;
No answers to your questions.
Yet a spl bonding;
Knitting my thoughts within.
            .
I always wondered what was so spl about u?!
I could come up with no answers.
            .
Gullible and navie i stood,
Getting engulfed by illussion.
It gives momentary joy,
On my tangled thoughts.
           .
You try your best,
To coach me view the world.
That is hard and difficult;
Shattering my naive feelings.
            .
I know i havent graduated much,
Yet this gives contentment within.
Feel happiness is better,
Than accepting the hard truth.
Jus stay wid me till d end...
forevaa!

Mystical World...

Things around have changed.
Melting boundaries,
Breaking limits.
        .
A world so wild & wide,
The glitter and glamour,
Caught your eye.
       .
What was once treasured,
Has worn out today!!!
        .
The need to adapt,
Took the lead.
Masking you indeed.
        .
Lost mid way,
Lost inbetween,
You search for your own shadow.
        .
The mask you is,
There waiting,
For whom?
The soul goes in for an introspection

The Year That Was... (looking back)

2011 has been special. It taught me varied lessons which I had never given a thought about. It brought about changes on my thought process, the attitude towards different things I encountered. I always had fixed attitudes, strong notions and beliefs systems that had two contrast gate ways (good and the bad) I categorized people, scanned them, and judged them, and put them through an analysis test and branded them at the end. My moods usually take over the ‘show’. I succumb to different shades of mood swings that come on my way. ‘People make me sad, make me get upset’ most of the times. I realize there is no reason as such why I am sad, or like when I ‘am not myself’. Now I feel it’s a luxury to pay heed to these kinds of emotions.


I find a hundred and one physical differences between individuals. So should there be infinite mental differences too!! Despite these differences we still have friends and well wishers who help us sail through the entire show! It’s quoted that friends are someone whom you can relate with and share common things. But in my opinion, I find few similarities amongst the so called friends. Different people, different background, different thought process yet staying together as friends!! That’s beautiful and that’s life! It’s really hard to arrive at a consensus... The beautiful chord that connects us is the element of silence. It’s the only domain we acknowledge, agree and accept. For none can lie to one’s own self. The freedom of   being just ‘you’ and not evaluating others gives some sort of bliss. There is too much of a chaos and misunderstanding when we interact too much.  The only universal language that we can all relate to is silence. And it is a blessing to remain silent at times. Lessons I learnt this passing year seems invaluable to me. Oh silence you are so potent your stillness does the speaking   and it means everything!)

The Clasped hands...

The dark gloomy days are back;

Making me go off track.
Perplexed and confused I was,

Reached the dead end of the wall.

No way to move ahead;

No answer to my soul's quest

I stood there waiting;
No change beckoned me out.
The darkness grew, the cold wind blew;
Yet I stood wondering if I could,
See the light that I longed to see
.

"Angel" I called all in vain.

Darkness engulfed me once again!

I lost hope and the little faith,

Embracing loneliness as my fate,

Waited for my end; that cold night.

The little angel did come

With all love, called me out

(There I was silent ........ asleep?)

My heart throbbed and whispered,

I knew you would finally come....

Rendezvous

The sun, set;

The skies darkened.

Clouds turned dark,

The night pitched in soon.

          .
Amazed at the beauty;
I gazed at the magnanimous sky.
Endless, bounty of energy,
The sky stretched to reach the infinite.
          .
Small; point size stars twinkled,
Soon they ran out of sight.
Was suprised to watch them change,
All in just a fraction of a second!
          .
Mighty and strong it stood.
Capturing my attention,
I couldnt blink, I simply froze.
As I watched the majestic moon.
         .
The round ball of cheese,
Was up there.
And I felt it was all mine,

My eyes gleamed in joy.

       .

As I stretched myself,

To get there.

Could reach no near.

Talll it stood,

Up there where no one is there.

       .

I moved and,

Closed the door.

But too eager;

I pushed the curtains,

It stood silent...

        .

It winked at me

With that little smile.

Soul's Song...

We both are caught in a world of contridictions.

A discussion starts between us, and turns into a debate soon.

We have strong views trying to knock out each other,

You succeed by branding me wrong all the tym.
               .
I silence myself,
Am quiet wid no words.
Absolutely cluesless of what to counter,
I try not to save myself,
Because I love u so much.
            .
Y don u realize?
That u cant be ryt all the tym,
Nor can I be wrg all the while.
No doubt ur charming,
But sumtyms ur cold n mean.
            .
I don care for who u are,
Derz endless love within.
I overlook ur flaws and erroneous zones.

            .

U feel ur important,

And that's some thing spl.

I do agree ur 'spl',

Sometimes u become self obssesed.

        .

U still feel I am wrg,

I only pity,

Ur old school of thought.

But respect ur rusted thoughts- old n obselete

           

          .

Wat eva may be,

We still  remain close.

I love you,

For wat u are.

Crystals Of Change...

I remember the days when,

You took me into your arms,
Kissed my forehead everynight.
Staying awake till I dozed off to sleep.
You woke up before sunrise,
Only to see if I am safe and sound.
Waiting to hear the bed spring bounce,
Embracing me to feel my warmth.
                 .
Days passed ; years rolled by,
Aloof and cold we felt.
The changes within us,
Caused distance within us.
We both stayed under the same roof,
Like strangers down the lane;
Sharing nothing in common,
Staring at eachother everyday.
                  .
Our wavelength no more matched,
Our likes were poles apart.
Pretending to enjoy each others company;
We stayed under the same roof.
The walls spoke about our differences,
The roof spoke about our distance.
Silently bearing we patiently stood,
Under the same roof.
                .
I noticed you were let down,
But never came out with words.

Your expressions translated your inner feeling.

Yet I could'nt comfort you,

It being no more my job.

There I stood standstill,

Experiencing the same feeling within.

                 .

"I am grown up" thats the fact.

I moved with the change.

But felt helpless;

As I watched your emotions stuck

"Pls grow up appa" I whispered;

As I moved away,

              .

It was the hard way,

But the only way.